I recently listened to a podcast by one of my favourite channels, the Lively Show, on changing our negative though patterns into positive emotions. This episode had a big impact on me. Jess shared her experiences with the feeling of 'overwhelm' and how this crept into her daily life as she struggled to achieve everything she has set out to do. The podcast challenged Jess to relabel this emotion of overwhelm and shift towards a more positive way to experience her life.
At the time I didn't think that 'overwhelm' was a feeling that I experienced. Until I started to label some of the uncomfortableness that I felt within - what was that emotion? Why was I feeling that way?
I've spent a bit of time grinding through iterations of my identity at Magnetic Hub. Mostly tripping into the holes of what is socially expected and the chasms of female identity crisis and then chastising myself for falling in the first place. Duh. I've been gently edited when I introduce myself to new members (thank you Gwen) and encouraged to keep using my slightly left-field examples instead of workplace situations.
Terms and labels, how can they fully represent the choices I have made, the tasks I fulfil, the way I use my time, the value I create around me? I'm getting better at letting go of labels, accepting the deficit in our global word bank of how to describe and value mothers and mothering - but also trying harder to create articulate, proud sentences to explain who I am.
I'm Michelle, based in Hamilton, raising two boys, a ginger cat and many vegetables. I have been involved with the work of Magnetic Hub since March 2015 and consider it 'home' in many ways. Accustomed to leading female-only groups, I continue to be energised by the beautiful wisdom that unfolds from women in a room, talking together. Read my musings and learn about our work - newsletter sign-up below... Enjoy. Michelle x